Learning to walk out in public

Well as part of my want to be able to just walk out on the town. I have been going out and walking around my apartment complex at night in one of my more every day outfits with my forms in. I’m finding that this helps to build up the courage of just walking around out in public. It also help with training my feet to walk in heels. Now to help out I always tend to do this around 11pm -1am at night just to reduce the risk of any mishaps. Now I tell you it does tend to happen that someone will be out on there deck or walking in a stairway. I have had this happen to me a few time. Even tonight I was getting ready to walk up the stairs to my apartment and 2 guys showed up to go up the same steps. So when this happens I just make sure my hoodie is over my head and just walk right on by. If I’m walking really close I tend to just look down so that they can’t get a good view of my face.

I hope to break this habit when I finally get all my make-up together and learn how to properly use it. That and I also need to get a good wig. Once I get all this down and a few more sessions of walking around at the apartment without my hoodie to protect me. I plan to try walking around at a store or something where there is more chance of people being around and I really have to be more feminine.

I so can’t wait for this day. Now to just get a more feminine voice by then as well.

Boobs

Well I got my silicone breast forms today, and let me tell you I love them. I have never felt so good when I have them on. The best part when it was all said and done it only cost me around $40. I’m going to tell you if you got the money and the time. Hit up ebay and grab yourself a pair.

I don’t know what it is but just having them on makes me feel better about how I look and more secure about myself while en femme. It makes me fell that I could just go hit up the town and no one would know who I was. Now if only I could dance.

The only down side so far is that I wish I also had another pair that wasn’t oval shaped so I could where them with my corset and other short strapless outfits. I might just have to buy a pair of those one of these days. After I get makeup and learn how to use it.

Boobs

Well I did it. I ordered some fake silicone breast inserts. They turned out not to be as much as I thought they would. I had been looking to buy them from actual stores but after reading some forum post some one had suggested ebay of all places to order them. I never really thought about this option as I just have yet to have good luck ordering from ebay. I figured I would give it one last try and hope they turn out well. So heres hoping they get here in time before everyone comes home. I really want to just wear them for hours on end.

Make your own set of fake breasts

One of the first thing many beginning T-Girls always want to know is how to get great fakes breasts. So I will explain to you the one method that I use. As I have yet to go out into public en femme do to some reasons. Mainly I have yet to get some makeup and a good wig to wear out, or anyone to go out with. I have yet to use a makeup/push up technique. The technique I use requires a few ingredients. You will need 4 balloons, preferable ones that match your skin tone or as close to as you can. The next part you will need is one of these two things some bird seed or rice. I used bird seed as it was the easiest thing I had at the time. The last thing you will need is a funnel.

The first step is to blow up all your balloons making sure to stretch them out pretty well. Once you have done that. you will want to take two of the balloons and insert one into the other keeping both open ends at same side. Now do the same for the other two balloons. What this provides is a smother less likely to break breast. Now take you funnel and place the open end of each of your balloons around the end of the funnel. Making sure to get both the outer and inner balloons on there. Now you might want to measure out two equal shares of rice or seed to about the size of breasts you are wanting to have. Keep in mind this approach only works best with an A or B cup. Any bigger and they will start to look fake more fake. I personally went for a B cup as an A cup is pretty small, and I wanted to actually feel that I had breasts. Now take your equal shares of rice or seed and poor them into each balloon set. There is really no technique to getting the rice or seed in the breast. Just make sure you get it all into there. Other wise you might have lop sided breasts. Once you have them full tie of the end of each balloon. When you do this keep the ends of the inner balloon at the same point as the outer balloon. This will help to give you an effect of having nipples.

If you have completed everything correct you should now have two nicely sized breasts. Now just put on your favorite bra and put them babies in. One thing I like to do it to take the extra skin that you have over your pecks and push it up as far as I can to better give myself the fill of having cleavage.

Please keep in mind this is not the only approach there is to having breasts of your own, but it seems to be the easiest and the less messiest for someone just coming out. By no means you I recommend this method if you know you will be engaging in sexual activities while en femme. As it might ruin the mood. For times like that you may wish to use the more complex makeup approach, or if you have money you may just wish to go out and buy yourself a nice set of strap on breasts. As I don’t have that much money to do that. This works well for me.

I will hopeful manage to learn the wonders of makeup and how to better create the illusion of having breast, but tell that day come this is what I got.

Buying your first set of clothes

Many people wounder how to go about buying there first set of clothes. I know I did. I was nervous about ordering them and one of my roommates intercepting my package. O boy that would be a fun thing to try to explain. So the time finally came when it would be possible for me to order them and not worry about getting caught. This time came when my roommates’ band would be going out on tour. I figured that would be the best time if any to order them.

I thought about were I would buy them from, how I would buy them, and what I would buy. I so wanted to buy a real sexy number from Victoria Secret or Fredrick’s of Hollywood, but I figured that would not be the best place for me to buy from. The main reason would be that I would have to worry about the delivery guy wondering what I was buy from them and why I was buying from them. I soon figured the best place for me to buy some clothes would be from one of the major retail stores websites. One would be because no one would ask question as to why I was buying from them, and two would be because well they are a hell of a lot cheaper.

As you well know the rest of the story if you have read my previous post. I did get my lovely clothes. I boy do I love them.

I would have to say that if you are truly wanting to get in touch with your second self. This would have to be one of the first steps to take at getting there. Once you get that first par of clothes you will feel much better about yourself and less toward thinking what you are doing is bad.

New Clothes

I know growing up is hard when your trying to discover yourself. I know the experience of sneaking into your sister’s/mom’s/roommate’s rooms and trying on there clothes. For me it was a kind of sense of adrenaline. The fear of getting caught, the fear of what people would think of you, and the enjoyment of doing it.

I have spent many of a time doing this method of exploring myself and who I am, but as it comes down to it you start to wish that you had your own set of clothes. Clothes that you don’t have to keep sneaking into roommates, waiting for people to leave, and trying not to get caught. It made be happy when for the first time I was able to get my first set of clothes all for my self. Granted these clothes were well worn and well not that great for a sense of design. None of them matched and none of them were in great shape, but still they were mine.

As time went on I was able to obtain more clothes of the same quality. These were great in all for learning who I was and why I enjoyed it some much, but as time goes on you start to get bored with these type of clothes. You start to want clothes that match, clothes that are new. One that feel good.

Well that day finally came for me, and boy does it feel good to actual have a pair of clothes that fit right, that feel good, and match. I will tell you that when the day comes you will start to wounder how you had made it this long with old hand me downs.

I had done my research on sizes, fabrics, and of course what clothes go best with my body. So it was off to get some new clothes, but where would I get them from. I though well I could go to Wal-Mart real late at night when there would be hardly anyone there. This works. I have gotten some shoes this way, but to go though some clothes racks looking for the correct sizes and ones that looked good just wasn’t something I felt like doing. Also in going thought what Wal-Mart had online showed that they really didn’t have much to pick from anyway. So I decided to look at some other big chain stores. The idea of shopping at chain stores would be for the shear fact that not only do they sell what I was looking for but they also sell guys clothes as well. So when the delivery man would show up it wouldn’t be all weird.

So I went looking at JCPenny, Wal-Mart, and Khols for a wordrobe that I would like. One that matched, One that fit me. I finally found one that I wanted that wasn’t that much. Being I really don’t have that much money to spend of a wardrobe at this time. It turned out to be the best I could get. So I put in my order, which consisted of a bra and pantie set (black), a per of nylons (black), and a beautiful white turtle neck sweeter. You may say well they don’t match. I say they were not ment to match fully. I currently already had a very nice set of brown pants that would work very well with the white sweeter, and I had a very nice dress that would go well with the rest.

After I had put in my order all I could think about was that day when the delivery man would show up with my new clothes. Well when that day came I was so gitty with excitement that they were here. I instantly went and tried them on, and let me tell you they felt so good. The fabric felt so good up agenst my skin. I couldn’t help but love them.

So out of this whole experience I have to tell you. If you ever get the chance to get new clothes take it. Don’t worry about anything just order them, and when they get there you will be so happy that you did that you will want to go out and get some more. So much that I can’t wait tell my roommates leave again.